Since you passed away

                                             Since you passed away (mom)


You enlightened me and my life
supported it and shaped it
the efforts you had put
can never be overlooked
I was connected and linked
like a pearl embedded
I stand bold but cold
against the storm of sorrows
since you passed away.

Tears stopped but my heart bleeds
my conscience rejoices but
my soul is grief-stricken
new memories live but
your memory won’t ever die
the eyes see new wonder but
nothing as appealing as your face
I love but not much
since you passed away.

You gave me birth, my start
into a new world of stranger
and I not less strange than anyone
but you made me feel cozy
and heartless, like I were superman
fed me, cared, loved, comforted me
I am thankful to you
since you passed away

You taught me, not words
but their feel; not to help
but to be kind; not to take revenge
but to forgive; not to memorize
I’ve become wiser
since you passed away
  
I am ashamed to tell but
I hated you when you scolded
cursed you within and
this became worse every day
never wanted you to stay
I now understand you,
I recognize your worth
since you passed away.


I feel bad that it can’t get worse
I am despised and spelled a curse
that I can never get rid of
no matter how hard I try
I bear a burden, of your death
I die every moment now and then
since you passed away.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   - Arpit Kaushal

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